A lot of things have happened sense last we spoke. As you all know, my folks house burned down. Well, a day afterward, Deanna told me we were taking a break from each other. One week later, she broke up with me (after meeting another guy, and lots of other things that I won’t get into here). And sense then, I’ve just been so deep in depression that I couldn’t really speak to anyone here, this place of reverence for her. It… was hard to go on, sometimes the only things keeping me going were our son, Matt, and the hope (vain prayer, by now) that she’ll one day grow up and come back.

But, life goes on, things still keep going, and I need to move on (either temporarily, or permanently). It’s just hard… she left me so suddenly. I really had thought that I didn’t have to worry about losing her… but then one day… she was gone. But not smoothly. She kept sending mixed signals. Calling me when her current boyfriend hurt her (almost every week), still kissing sometimes, still with the love. That’s all stopped, she said I make her feel too sorry for me (as if I’m the one who did something wrong). I… well, if she ever gets her own head straightened out, I’d take her back in an instant, even after all she’s done to me (just trust me, a lot over the last 6 months).

The worst part of all this, is our little boy. I see him more then most other separated fathers get to see their kids, but I didn’t do anything wrong! 3 hours a day, 2 days a week. Then overnight for one or two days (alternating weeks). He’s so happy when we’re together, too. I feel so bad for little Matt. I just wish she’d at least TRY to work this out. But she want’s to be “A Kid” and do stuff teens do, up ’till the last few months I was the only guy she’d ever been with. But I just wish she’d give us a chance. We had such a bright future. We were getting married! WE’D JUST BOUGHT A FREAKIN’ HOUSE!!!

I just wish she’d give us another chance. I still love her, and I’m afraid that even if she never comes back, I always will…

I put something up on Digg to get Mom and Dad some help after the house burned down. I figure it may get a couple of donations. If anyone has any questions, feel free to call (or post or what ever).

The link on Digg has most of the information.

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Microsoft launches Windows Live Writer, a new publishing tool for authoring rich blog posts on Windows Live Spaces, Wordpress, Typepad and other blogging services.

How many different languages can you say “Crap” in? I *JUST* move to Linux and Microsoft releases the best Blogging client I’ve yet come across. It supports all sorts of good stuff. Pics (either from file or URL), Maps (from the new, though somewhat cool Windows Live Map service) but to me the coolest part (apart from the interface which automatically shows what it looks like in your blog) is the fact that it AUTOMAGICLY figures out what the settings for my blog are. Yep. Just put in the blog URL (truevox.net), the username and password, and it figures it out for you! Frankly, I’m impressed. THIS is what other blogging clients need to figure out, it’s finally what a blog should be like.

Come on, Google, we need something like this!

EDIT: Though the screen cap above shows a map, I wasn’t able to upload it because Microsoft puts it into the blog as a standard pic hotmapped to their servers, and I don’t like to host pics on my servers ‘cuz I’m cheap and pay by the byte. But it DOES work (and well too!).

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And this time, it got enough diggs to make it to the front page! W00t! I am SO psyched about this. It might just get it the extra exposure it REALLY needs to go nova. Digg should provide plenty of eager beta testers, and honestly, the program runs great for where it is in it’s dev cycle.

Anyway, PLEASE DIGG IT!!! PLEASE! We need your support!

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UPDATE: There is another OFF centric story on Digg! Check it out:

Darknets are SO last century. Why not go Brightnet! Why break the law when you don’t have to. Hackers have found a way to share stuff without violating copyright.

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Here we have a brand spankin’ new Domain (truevox.net) and GREAT pay as you go hosting provided by nearlyfreespeech.net (GOOD people, pay per usage). At any rate, I’m here to stay. I’m powered by sweet delicious Wordpress (a GREAT CMS, if you all are intrested). Now, on to business.

We’ve got a new member of our Family! Her name is Angel, and Deanna is GAGA over her. Oh, and here’s a few pics:

Isn’t she a sweet heart? We’ve fallen in love with her from when my dad walked through the door with her. I think we’re gonna keep her. She’s in the bathroom now, just enjoying the shelter (she was sitting under my car when Dad saw her).

In other news, I HAVE A MOVIE OF OUR HOUSE!!! Here we go:

Well, thanks for joining us, both at our new cyber home, and soon at our new HOME home. The cleaning party is on the 22 of this month, and there will be my Dad’s pizza and Deanna’s Gram’s Pasta. Mm mm good!

Thanks, and happy reading!